Chapter 127 Past Events, Her Guilt and Regret

Taking girls with you when playing games is the most tiring thing. Chen Yuan never did that before. He has only taken one girl with him from beginning to end.

Because of the food.

People often say that playing games is pure entertainment, but Chen Yuan is different. He actually attaches great importance to winning or losing the game. The joy brought by victory is the most important part of entertainment.

Being young, I am more competitive.

It is very painful to have the ability but not be able to win.

Taking care of one girl is tiring enough, let alone two.

When the game started, he thought that "Brother Bochi" was not a newbie girl, but a skilled girl who knew how to play. However, the result was even more outrageous than Jiang Yao. The two of them almost gave away two-thirds of the team's kills.

On the gaming chair.

Chen Yuan covered his cheek in pain and let out a long sigh.

"I don't know what to say." He answered Jiang Yao.

I am really speechless.

Jiang Yao was very embarrassed. She also knew that her performance in the previous game was a bit too outrageous. The main reason was that she hadn't played for a long time and was completely unfamiliar with the operations.

In the past, she was actually pretty good at it.

Much stronger than Jiang Ning.

Because when they were in an online relationship, in order to become a qualified assistant and not put pressure on Chen Yuan, she practiced hard for a period of time. At that time, she made strategies every day and watched the assistant videos of those bloggers on the Internet.

How to place wards, how to exchange blood, and how to find a position for team battles.

I study very seriously, even more attentively than when I was in school.

After that, her strength soared, so Chen Yuan even praised her... At that time, sitting in the chair and listening to his praise, Yaoyao felt sweeter in the heart than eating honey, and felt that all her efforts were worth it.

But now, all the knowledge about laning has been forgotten!

"I... I'm just a little unfamiliar with this. Don't worry, young master. I will do very well next time and I will definitely not let you down."

Jiang Yao pushed Chen Yuan's thigh so hard that it swayed. She looked at him eagerly and began to act coquettishly.

……

"Mom, I'm back."

Ke Bing had just arrived home. He took off his sneakers while standing at the entrance, then stepped on the floor in his snow-white socks. He took a few steps before he found the slippers he had casually taken off in the living room last time.

"Why did you suddenly come here today? Don't you live in the school, Rourou?"

Mom and Dad Ke were watching the latest hit TV series seriously and turned their heads when they heard the voice.

All of them looked surprised.

She put the remote control aside and walked over to me with concern. "You came back without telling me. I have braised beef in the kitchen. Are you hungry?"

"I'm not hungry. I ate enough outside."

After hugging her mother, Ke Bing felt the long-lost warmth and sat down on the sofa.

Ke Bing attends university in Sanya, which is not very close to her home. It takes at least 40 minutes to get there by bus. She usually spends every day with her bestie on holidays, feeling free and unrestrained.

So, I don’t go home often, only once a month.

It turned out that she didn't plan to come back once a month, but she has a younger sister at home, and she always said she missed her every time I video called her.

The relationship between brothers and sisters seems to always be the same. They quarrel all the time when they are together, but they will miss each other after a while when they are not around.

Ke Bing's sister is only four years old...

After moving to Sanya, she was in high school at the time. One day when she returned home, she was suddenly told that she was going to be a big sister! She was shocked and speechless for a long time, and she thought she was destined to be an only child for the rest of her life.

No one could have imagined such a thing.

"Where's Mengmeng?"

"Your sister went to bed early, so I held up my phone to watch half an episode of a cartoon for her. Maybe the cartoon was too boring..." Without even raising his head, Mr. Ke was browsing the latest news on his phone while wearing his reading glasses.

I heard that the international situation has been tense recently. As a die-hard military fan, the old man would get to the bottom of any slight disturbance.

When I go downstairs, I usually chat with other old men in the square.

"I was tired of writing my graduation thesis today, so I went to the rocky beach to fish. You will never guess who I met!" Ke Bing shared excitedly.

"Who? Your high school classmate?"

"No, it's Chen Yuan!"

"Chen Yuan? Which Chen Yuan? Why does this name sound familiar to me?"

Commercials started playing on TV, and Ke's mother took the remote control and prepared to change the channel.

"Could it be the child of Old Chen's family?"

Dad Ke also raised his head, a little confused.

"Yes, it's Uncle Chen's Xiaoyuan! He came to Sanya for tourism."

"real or fake!?"

"Why would I lie to you two?" Ke Bing pulled her hair back. "I didn't recognize him at first. Do you know how tall he is now? About 1.8 meters tall. I have to look up when I talk to him. I should have known not to wear flat shoes today."

"Why did the child of the old Chen family come to Sanya for tourism? He didn't even tell me in advance. You too, why don't you bring your family over for a meal?" Ke's mother patted her lightly and blamed her, "I haven't seen this kid for several years. He must be 18 years old now? Has he taken the college entrance examination?"

"I took the exam. I heard that he got into Lan University."

"Be good!"

"This kid has a promising future, much better than our Bingbing," Dad Ke put down his phone and sighed, "When I was a child, I thought Xiao Yuanxing was able to sit still and had a smart mind. If he hadn't moved to Sanya, I might have had a chance to be his class teacher."

"Why are you dragging me into this? It's not like I didn't study hard..."

Ke Bing was ashamed. Although she worked very hard in high school, she was never lazy.

"Did you take them out to play?"

"No……"

"immature!"

Mother Ke's expression suddenly became serious. She had a very good relationship with Chen's father and mother. They went to the same school for many years. She was present at Mother Chen's wedding and was busy running around.

Immediately, Ke's mother took out her cell phone, found the number and dialed it.

After the call was connected, the tone immediately became warm.

"Hello~Hello! Is this Xiaohe?"

"Hey, why didn't you tell me that Xiaoyuan was coming to Sanya? If Bingbing hadn't run into him while out playing, I wouldn't have known that he was traveling here!"

I saw the greetings starting here.

Ke Bing knew that there was nothing for him to do.

She came back today to tell her parents about this matter, otherwise she would definitely be scolded for being ignorant if she talked about it later.

As authentic northerners, her family attached great importance to showing hospitality to guests when they met them in a foreign place. Now that the news had been passed on, she walked towards the bedroom.

Turn on the lights and tidy up.

Then sit at the desk.

Ke Bing sighed. Until now, no approved friend request had popped up on her phone.

From today's meeting to the dinner party later, how could she, who was so sensitive, not see that the cute Xiao Yuan in the past, the little brother who always liked to follow her around, was now a stranger to her.

The mirror on the table reflected her slightly frowned brows and melancholy expression.

Since her laptop was left at school, she was forced to use an older desktop computer. She opened her unfinished paper and read it for a long time with her chin in her hand.

Ke Bing studied engineering, with his major mainly in pharmaceutical engineering.

She is about to graduate, and actually has been very relaxed this entire semester. The only thing she has to worry about is the thesis. She has also submitted many resumes for internship jobs, but there is still half of the year left so there is no need to rush.

After being a student for so many years, I am finally going to grow up and step out of the ivory tower of school.

Ke Bing had never imagined what her life would be like when she entered society in the future. She probably would find a fairly satisfactory job, then slowly gain experience, and when she was about the right age, find someone she liked and marry him/her.

After that, I had children, raised them, enjoyed the warmth brought by the family, and experienced the daily necessities of life. When I met my bestie again, I was afraid that what I would complain about would be those trivial troubles.

When she was a child, she often fantasized about what an eventful life she would have.

Just like the heroines in the literary works you have read.

Pain, struggle, hard work, heartbreak, and seeing the light again after clearing away the clouds, writers always describe a poetic world. The one she read the most in junior high school was Yasunari Kawabata.

"Go through the long tunnel across the county boundary and you will reach the snow country."

"The night sky is white"

"The train stopped at the signal station."

An extremely beautiful beginning. Every time Ke Bing savors it carefully, he is always immersed in the world described by Yasunari Kawabata.

However, life is very different from literary works.

When she was about to graduate from college, she realized that life was so dull that it passed by so quickly that she didn't even realize the passage of time!
She has been following the routine and arrangements made by her parents, and now she even has the mentality of just getting by.

Ke Bing gradually realized that she was just an ordinary girl from an ordinary family. She only looked good, which allowed her to receive more attention on campus. Other than that, there seemed to be nothing outstanding about her.

But she really can't let go of those picky feelings, so she hasn't found a boyfriend yet.

You can say that he is too ambitious or unrealistic.

She was still unwilling to compromise too much and give her first love and her most sincere feelings to others. Not only was she worried about being hurt, she was also afraid of investing too much and ending up in vain.

Been in a daze for a long time.

Ke Bing came back to his senses and yawned.

She fiddled with her phone, opening the green bubble every few seconds. Such a night was destined to be lonely, with messages from her junior schoolmates and chatter from her bestie.

Even if he saw it, Ke Bing didn't want to go back.

She just kept checking the "pending verification" in the friend request.

After a long while, he leaned back in his chair and stared blankly at the ceiling.

"Xiao Yuan...you're not angry with me."

She left without saying goodbye and deliberately hid it from Chen Yuan.

When people came back, they found that the next door was empty. All the furniture had been moved away. Only the paintings on the wall were still there. There were some pens and small toys scattered on the floor.

Covered in countless dust.

Dusty.

It was probably after I moved the bed that I discovered that the pen that I had lost for no reason and the small toy that I had been looking for nowhere were actually hidden in the gap under the bed.

Ke Bing didn't know that Chen Yuan, who was only twelve years old at the time, walked into the room.

How long did he stand there in a daze, looking at the dust in the room?

In just a few days, he completely lost his best and most cherished friend.

Nothing was left, not even a word, just a pile of rubbish.

He may have thought about it for a long time, may have felt betrayed, or may have been angry and sad for the entire holiday.

Just as Chen Yuan had thought before, he longed to walk on an unfamiliar street, and then suddenly meet a familiar figure, who happened to be Ke Bing who left without saying goodbye.

Such fantasies only exist in adolescence.

Before long, the idea drowned in my mind for a long time.

Chen Yuan would never foolishly hope to meet her again.

All leaving without saying goodbye is cruel, selfish and irresponsible!

Those who are absent have no reason to return to their reasonable position, because they are no longer needed. Don’t even have the ridiculous expectation of "he will always miss me after he leaves". No one is worthy of a young man's long-lasting lovesickness.

Ke Bing thought about it for a long time, then suddenly she stood up, walked to the bed, squatted down and opened the drawer beside her.

She searched through it.

Graduation photos that I have kept for many years, junior high school yearbooks, worn-out dolls, boxes filled with raffia...

One thing after another was taken out and placed on the floor.

Until she found an MP3 hidden at the bottom.

The yellow beetle-style MP3 is not expensive, only a few dozen yuan each. You need to insert an SD card to listen to music. Students often go to a mobile phone store to download a lot of music and store it on the card before they can plug in headphones to listen to music.

It's already very old stuff.

Under this beetle, there is also a letter.

Ke Bing looked at the letter for a long time. She remained silent with her eyes downcast. She didn't have the courage to open the envelope to see what was written inside.

It took her a long time to leave and she had a sleepless night.

I stood up and wrote this letter as a farewell.

I also bought this gift and planned to give it to Chen Yuan.

When she grew up, of course she realized that the letter was both childish and ridiculous, with words like "Never forget Sister Rourou", "Study hard, maybe we will have a chance to meet again in the future", "I look forward to what you will be like when you grow up", and so on.

It must be so embarrassing to read it.

However, this letter contains the most sincere feelings and contains the youthfulness that can never be returned.

Ke Bing put down the two things and rubbed her delicate cheeks vigorously. She collapsed on the floor and hugged her knees.

Humans are such childish and tangled creatures.

Why didn’t you have the courage to leave this letter?
She knows it herself.

In fact, I am heading towards a new life with full of hope, looking forward to a wider world. I am about to leave the poor and remote small county town, and I feel that the playmates I used to spend every day with are not that important.

To reveal the most despicable heart is simply to not care enough.

Regret is the most useless thing.

Now Chen Yuan has grown into a big boy. It is no exaggeration to say that he is dazzling. He has a very beautiful girlfriend and a colorful university life. Many girls are willing to add his contact information and be friends with him.

This was already evident when I was in high school.

A group of little fans pretended to come to his class to find friends and stood in the corridor, but their eyes kept inadvertently sweeping over Chen Yuan in the classroom.

He is no longer that follower.

He is no longer a poor little guy who only has Sister Rourou as his good friend.

(End of this chapter)