Chapter 205 If one person were to disappear, who would you hope it was?
"Is it that serious?" He wiped the tears from the corners of Jiang Yao's eyes with his palm.

Is it strange that women are so competitive? If this is a comparison with other girls, it's fine, but now they are not letting themselves go? Doesn't that mean that the same two legs can be compared and jealous? If he said he likes the left leg, he can't touch the right leg anymore. If it's more extreme, does it mean that even the hair is compared?

Chen Yuan couldn't imagine how terrifying that would be.

Although they have different personalities, they are still one person in the end.

Chen Yuan couldn't understand this behavior.

He thought about it carefully. Indeed, judging from Ningning and Yaoyao's behavior, they never considered themselves and each other as the same person! So even if they occupied the same body, they must be separated from each other in all aspects.

This has nothing to do with whether you like to be jealous or not, even if it’s Ningning who isn’t jealous.

I also hate it when he calls me by the wrong name when we are together.

If they were chatting and laughing, but he didn't realize that he called the wrong name, his face would instantly turn gloomy, and he would ask, "What did you call me?"

Every time this happened, Chen Yuan would realize belatedly that he had called the wrong name.

Yaoyao and Ningning had the same reaction to this matter.

He has made similar mistakes many times, but Chen Yuan felt that it was not his fault at all. How could he tell the difference so clearly? Sometimes when he woke up from a nap, Ningning and Yaoyao beside him had swapped personalities. Of course, the one he called out was the one who was beside him before going to bed, but after he called out...

A voice came from the other side: "What did you call me?"

He suddenly sobered up...

Now Chen Yuan has learned to be smart. He confirms who the person is first and then calls out the nickname.

It is easy to distinguish them. The difference can be seen from their smiles. When Yaoyao sees him, she will smile particularly brightly, while Ningning will only smile slightly.

There are times when he doesn't smile, so it's not always easy to tell the difference.

Maybe we should find a way, use a secret code or something...it would be a bit troublesome.

The more Chen Yuan thought about it, the more headache he got!
It would be better to cure this disease as soon as possible, so that they can get along like a normal couple in the future.

Otherwise I'll always feel like something is weird.

……

Since Jiang Yao brought it up on her own initiative, he might as well take the opportunity to ask about it.

"Have you been taking your medicine properly recently? What did the doctor say?" Chen Yuan asked cautiously.

"Of course I've been taking my medicine, and I feel much better recently. I may be able to recover in a month or so."

"real???"

"How could this be false? Why would I lie to you?" Jiang Yao supported his cheek with a vague look.

"That's great, I don't have to worry so much... Don't feel any psychological pressure, Yaoyao, you must follow the doctor's instructions. You didn't let me supervise you taking the medicine before, so you must follow the doctor's orders yourself."

Chen Yuan couldn't contain his joy, and his tone became cheerful.

This dual personality disorder is not a big problem, as it does not affect life too much at present. Instead, it provides a lot of fun. It is a small problem, but mental problems cannot be small and must be taken seriously.

This is a latent bomb. If it is not cured, one day it may bring a devastating thunder to our originally peaceful life.

Seeing Chen Yuan's uncontrollable smile, Jiang Yao couldn't smile. There was a hidden sadness in her eyes.

She pulled the corners of her mouth and her expression was very stiff.

okay?

Maybe not that good.

The day she recovers from her illness is also the day she and Ningning have to decide whether to stay or leave, and then only one person will be left.

She had made up her mind that if she didn't want to stay, she would go to Japan and never come back.

She didn’t know what Ningning was planning, but it was probably the same thing as hers and it wouldn’t happen again in the future.

Jiang Yao didn't know if her sister was afraid or not, but she was really afraid that Chen Yuan would not choose her in the end. How would she face this fact then? I'm afraid she would cry until she was dizzy and cry herself to death. It sounds free and easy, but every step away from Lanjing would be full of tears.

It is so difficult to meet a soul mate in life, needless to say how sweet and happy these days are.

There are often such sad and beautiful love stories in the world. At the same time, no one knows how many people will experience separation, but everyone who truly loves each other will be heartbroken when facing such specific pain.

Jiang Yao is willing to live an extremely mediocre life with Chen Yuan. The two of them can give up everything as long as Chen Yuan doesn't give up her.

For girls, such a relationship is a lifelong pursuit.

She has never given her true heart to anyone else.

Jiang Yao couldn't help herself. She was eager to know whether she had defeated Ningning in the Heart-beating Diary. In other words, she wanted to ask Ningning and Yaoyao, who Chen Yuan would choose!

These days, she would think about these things whenever she closed her eyes. As the date approached, she felt her nerves tense.

"I will definitely recover. When the time comes, even if it's not me who stays, you must be happy... Young Master."

Jiang Yao smiled faintly and sadly.

"what?"

Chen Yuan didn't understand what this sentence meant, why it made him so sad.

"Leaving what behind?" he asked again.

"After you recover from your illness, there will only be one of Ningning and me left. No matter who you are by then, I hope you will be happy... Always happy, and it's best if you forget me."

Jiang Yao pursed her lips. Unexpectedly, she did not secretly signal Chen Yuan that he must choose her.

In fact, she particularly wanted to use such a conspiracy.

But that's not fair.

If she did this and Chen Yuan really chose her, Jiang Yao would feel guilty for the rest of her life, and there was no guarantee that Chen Yuan would be happy.

Therefore, the two sisters had an agreement in advance, which is a principle that must not be violated.

"What...only one left?" Chen Yuan was confused.

"Didn't Ningning tell you?"

"No, never."

In the dim bedroom, Chen Yuan frowned, realizing the seriousness of the problem.

A cool evening breeze blew in from the window, gently caressing the gauze curtain beside the window. The night and the moonlight merged together, and looking through the gauze from afar it seemed as if there was fog outside.

Jiang Yao took a deep breath.

She finally couldn't help herself and came to this point.

"The doctor's opinion is that there are two types of personalities: the primary personality and the secondary personality. This disease will completely eliminate the secondary personality after it is cured, and from now on, you will become a normal person."

"??? That means," Chen Yuan understood with difficulty, "one of you and Ningning will disappear in the future?"

"Yes."

"Why? Can't they blend together?"

"Of course not, because she is a derivative from the perspective of personality, an unwanted third party. Only after she is eliminated can the health be improved."

Chen Yuan stared with eyes full of disbelief for a long time.

He suddenly got up from the bed.

"Then who is the secondary personality and who is the primary personality?"

"I am the main personality! I think Ningning should be eliminated." Jiang Yao said with a smile.

These words made Chen Yuan's heart rise to his throat and his face turned pale in an instant.

Jiang Yao then said, "But Ningning believes that she is the main personality and should eliminate me, so there is no answer to this question for us."

"Can't...is there no other way? Must there be one less?"

"Yes, that's why I've been worried and anxious for so many days," Jiang Yao came over and hugged him, "If... I mean if, young master, it was me who was eliminated, would you miss me?"

"I……"

He opened his mouth, but no words came out.

How to answer this question?

He didn't know that he was already disturbed by messy thoughts at the moment, and his mind was full of "one must disappear". These words kept repeating over and over again, as heavy as a thousand pounds.

“If it’s not me who stays with you in the end, and you and Ningning are so happy that you forget about me, Yaoyao will be super super super angry... But you can’t see my anger. Anyway, I will blame you very much, little master... You’d better not miss me in the future, because you won’t be able to find me even if you miss me. I will hide.” Jiang Yao’s voice became lower and lower, and in the end it was almost inaudible, like a whisper in a dream.

"I'll hide and love you secretly, okay?" she asked.

Jiang Yao repeated the three words "hide" and crawled into the quilt, like a little hamster going home to rest, leaving only half of her body outside and a bulge on the quilt.

"Can you please make it clear that the personality will definitely disappear. There is no other possibility?"

Chen Yuan lifted the quilt and asked anxiously.

However, he was shocked to see Yaoyao lying there with her hair disheveled and her eyes filled with tears, staring at him silently.

He was unable to say anything and could only go over and hug Jiang Yao.

A few drops of warm water fell on the shoulders... Slowly, some soaked into the clothes, and some slid down the neck.

It gradually gets cooler, then disappears, and can no longer be felt.

He was at a loss, and his heart seemed to sink to the bottom along with the tears.

This incident was so sudden, like a blow to the head, that Chen Yuan was stunned. He used to think that after recovery, this kind of multiple personality disorder would be like a normal person, and Teacher Jiang would be a combination of Ningning and Yaoyao. He never thought that "recovery" was like this.

This is equivalent to having two souls living in one body.

But if you lose one...

Chen Yuan didn't dare to think about it at all. He also liked Yaoyao very much and never felt that Yaoyao was worse than Ningning. But why did it become an either-or situation?

He couldn't accept it.

"Is there no other way? I definitely don't want your personality to be eliminated. What's the point of having the main personality and the secondary personality... Ningning being eliminated is not okay!"

"But this is an illness, young master. It must be cured, otherwise Ningning and I will suffer endlessly. Do you understand that feeling? Don't you want to have a future with me? After I recover, I will find a new job. When you graduate, I will marry you. We will have many babies and grow old together in good health."

"What about Ningning?"

"If it's Ningning who stays, you'll be happy too. She loves you too, I know that." Jiang Yao calmed down a little. She played with Chen Yuan's hair and whispered, "Then it's like I said, I'll hide and love you secretly, but the price is that you'll never see me again in your life."

"This is fake, right? Yaoyao," Chen Yuan smiled bitterly, twisted Jiang Yao's shoulders and looked at her, "You usually like to joke with me, this must be fake."

"Isn't this it?" He stared into Jiang Yao's eyes, "Come on, tell me, is it fake?"

Soon, Chen Yuanlian's bitter smile disappeared.

Because he saw that Jiang Yao didn't mean to joke at all, she was very serious, and there was even a despairing calmness in her eyes.

Suddenly.

He felt as if a bolt of lightning had struck the top of his head, and his whole body froze, unable to move.

It was such a happy day.

I am clearly looking forward to the beauty and happiness of the future.

But all this was just the last bit of calm before the end of the world.

A little over a month was so short, just like the morning mist that passed by so quickly. I only walked one street and when I looked back, the mist had disappeared.

"Why didn't you tell me before!?"

"I thought Ningning would tell you."

"No, that's not right. There must be another way. I can ask my family to find the best doctor for you!" Chen Yuan got out of bed and put on his slippers. After a moment's pause, he began to fumble around in bed. "Where's my phone? Wait for me to make a call!"

"Don't be anxious, young master. Come and sit down first." She patted the edge of the bed.

Chen Yuan had already found his cell phone and was about to make a call.

But Jiang Yao snatched it away.

She stared at Chen Yuan stubbornly and asked him to sit down.

"what happened again?"

"Don't I know my own body clearly? Now I want to ask you, I'll give you another chance, Ningning and me, which one do you like?"

"Didn't I just answer that?"

"That one doesn't count. Say it again."

"What does this have to do with your illness? Is it that important!"

"Of course it matters, because no one is sure who will stay after the cure," Jiang Yao cleverly mixed up the concepts. She lied, "If I really disappear in the end, at least you can make me feel better."

"What a mess, are you really not kidding me?"

"No."

"I can't choose. I can't make a decision."

"You can't like both of them, love both of them!"

"This kind of thing can't be weighed with a scale. Who can tell the difference so clearly? One point more and one point less." Chen Yuan was a little anxious and didn't know what to say.

In the end, he simply spread his hands and sat down on the edge of the bed in pain.

"You must have the answer in your heart, but you just don't want to say it."

"How do you know I have the answer?"

"Intuition, a woman's intuition."

"It's impossible. I can't make a decision. Yaoyao, please don't force me."

"See, I told you you were lying. You clearly said it was me just now, but now you can't say it anymore," Jiang Yao said aggrievedly, "Didn't you say you liked my personality more? Liar, you are a liar!"

"That's different. I didn't know just now that one person would disappear after I recovered from the illness. Now, no matter if it's you or Ningning, I can't accept the disappearance of either of them."

"How are they different? You have to distinguish between guilt and love. If you are sad just because the other person disappears, that is not love."

"I don't want to argue with you, that's enough!"

I had quarreled with Ningning before, and now Jiang Yao brought up another matter.

A wave of unrest, a wave of up again.

He didn't know why. There had never been any problems before, but since returning from winter vacation, it seemed as if Jiang Ning and Jiang Yao had become anxious. They clung to him more than before, and often when they were quiet, a hint of reluctance would reveal in their eyes.

Could it be that after recovery from this disease, such a situation would occur?

Jiang Yao came to accompany Chen Yuan today. It was originally a very happy and sweet thing. However, the approaching death deadline forced her to make some other plans. She didn't know Ningning. If she was the one who disappeared in the end, then she had to do something. Otherwise, going to Neon would be a delusion. It would be a problem for her to live without depression.

Because she knew how much she liked Chen Yuan.

So, in order to fulfill her plan, she had to know the result before the heart-thumping game ended.

"I don't want to quarrel with you either... If, in the end, I really disappear, young master, let's cherish every moment we have together now."

Seeing that Chen Yuan was forced to this point, he still hadn't made a decision.

Jiang Yao had no choice but to give up.

However, this made her more determined and she made the final decision.

……

"What are you looking at?"

It was ten o'clock at night.

In the study, the dimly lit computer screen reflected Chen Yuan's handsome face.

Jiang Yao pushed open the door and walked in, asking.

Chen Yuan quickly closed the screen.

"No, I didn't see anything..."

"You are the worst at lying. How could you hide something from others so blatantly?" Jiang Yao pouted as she came over and opened the laptop. Large pieces of text came into view, all about information on multiple personalities. "Are you looking up something?"

"Um……"

Seeing that he couldn't hide it, Chen Yuan had to admit it.

However, he did not find any useful information. He had already read these when he heard Jiang Yao talk about this disease.

Most of the knowledge that can be spread on the Internet comes from those few long-circulated medical books.

Now, what he found was almost the same as what Jiang Yao said. Multiple personalities are divided into main personality and secondary personality. The two are interdependent in the same body. Their behavior patterns and personalities are different, which can lead to severe amnesia.

During the periodic replacement, one personality is often unaware of what the other personality is doing.

When the situation stabilizes and the symptoms reach the later stage, when the two personalities can communicate with each other, the amnesia symptoms are no longer prominent and recovery is not far away.

"It can't be changed. The disease is almost cured. Be prepared to accept it calmly... Young Master, how can you be like this? You said you wanted to go to the toilet while holding a notebook. I didn't even want to expose you at the time."

"..."

"Oh, didn't I tell you to cherish every minute and every second? You look so sad now," Jiang Yao came over, sat on Chen Yuan's lap, hugged him, and raised the corner of his mouth with her hand, "Smile for your sister, okay?"

"How can you make me laugh?"

"But being happy is also a day, being unhappy is also a day. Your expression now makes me feel bitter," Jiang Yao stuck out her tongue, "It's like eating bitter melon, so ugly."

"Ha ha."

"It's even uglier to smile like this."

"If you really want to disappear..."

"Oh! Okay, let's not talk about this topic anymore, okay? Let's do something else, I beg you... Young Master," Jiang Yao wailed in despair, "I wouldn't have said it if I had known."

“Is this a question of whether to say it or not?”

"If you keep making noise you're a puppy...you're a puppy."

Jiang Yao rubbed his face. The more annoyed she was, the clingier she became. But Chen Yuan couldn't get angry and could only look impatient.

"Let sister see if your teeth are sharp, little puppy, open your mouth." She continued teasing.

"Are you childish? I'm so annoyed. Can you please go away?"

"So fierce, and a little wolf-dog."

"If you keep being so annoying, I'll throw you into the bedroom and lock you up and tie you up."

"Then tie me up, you must tie me up, then we can play this..." Jiang Yao took the initiative to stretch out her hand, blinking playfully, with a hint of mist in her watery eyes, which was extremely adorable.

Chen Yuan saw that he was angry and it had no effect on Jiang Yao.

She is different from Ningning.

He didn't care about face at all. The worse his attitude was, the more Yaoyao would try to get ahead of him.

As if she was craving him to continue treating her roughly.

No, Chen Yuan thought, I absolutely cannot let her do what she wants, and he started to feel irritated.

He frowned.

"It doesn't matter. You can do whatever you want. If I pay any attention to you, I lose." Chen Yuan sneered and continued to check information on the computer carefully.

"You said it." Jiang Yao asked tentatively.

This statement received no response.

Chen Yuan turned on the do not disturb mode and refused to receive her messages.

Then, Yaoyao reached out to touch his thigh, reaching for the hidden object.

"Hey!" He suddenly clamped his legs together and broke through the defense in a second.

"You lose, hehe." There was a cunning light in Jiang Yao's eyes.

Chen Yuan squinted at her without saying a word. He could only be angry but not speak. All the methods he could think of so far did not work on Jiang Yao. In other words, he could do nothing about this clingy person.

After a while.

"You're not talking again... Young Master," Jiang Yao lifted her chin and looked at him, then suddenly came closer and whispered in his ear, "Shall we shiver?"

"?"

A random remark with a hint of teasing at the end was so alluring that it made one's heart sway.

Chen Yuan was young and energetic, and for a moment he became unsteady.

"I'm not in the mood!" He hesitated and refused flatly.

"Come on, come on..."

"Do not."

There was no way Jiang Ning would say these two words. She was too serious. It would be better to kill her than to say that. On the contrary, it was Jiang Yao who was easily shocked.

It almost broke Chen Yuan's defense.

"Then let's not do anything else. Just stay with me in bed for a while, okay? Go to sleep."

"You've been lying there for so long. I just want to be alone for a while. Go by yourself."

"Okay Chen Yuan, if you don't agree to anything I say, then I won't bother you anymore!"

"It's a deal, great."

"You'll regret it now. I'm going to go outside by myself. I'm going to freeze in the hallway."

"Are you sick?" Chen Yuan was puzzled.

"goodbye!"

"Yaoyao? Jiang Yao—Hello!"

……

One minute later.

Chen Yuan lay on the bed with an expressionless face, and Jiang Yao hugged his arm and smiled sweetly.

(End of this chapter)