Chapter 127 Acting
"You, what are you talking about?"

Lin Yuehua was a little frightened by Li Zhuangsheng's momentum. She couldn't understand the anger in Li Zhuangsheng's eyes. He was clearly looking at her, but his eyes seemed to be looking at someone else.

"Oh, this, this is the idea for my new novel." Li Zhuangsheng turned his head away, feeling the wind, and laughed faintly, his voice gradually rising, as if the louder he spoke, the more confident he seemed. "You know, I'm a writer, and I'm thinking about writing a new story. What I just talked about was the character setting. When writing a novel, you have to put yourself into the role to make it feel real!"

These words had been stuck in his throat since he first saw Lin Yuehua after his rebirth. Now he finally said them out, the anger that had been suppressed for almost ten years.

The trigger that triggered Li Zhuangsheng's outburst was the argument about Su Mei's motives while watching a movie in class. Lin Yuehua firmly believed that she would not give in to reality and money and go against her own heart. She said it very well, but Li Zhuangsheng felt that she was lying.

If it is true that "100 million is not enough", then why is 100,000 or 200,000 enough? It sounds so good, but it turns out to be a lie!

Although he knew in his heart that the two things should not be compared, but this is what happens when you get angry. No matter the reason, you are a liar anyway.

Later, when talking about "Harvest Road", he suddenly thought, there are so many low-income students in China who have achieved class transition through the college entrance examination, why can't she do it? She should be able to pass it all the way!
You can pass it, why give up?

If you are not an idiot, what are you? If I say you are an idiot, don't be stubborn. I am not wrong!
"Oh, that's it."

After hearing the explanation, Lin Yuehua nodded in acceptance. She was doubtful, but she couldn't think of any other reason.

"Hey, do me a favor." Li Zhuangsheng scratched his bangs. "I'm thinking of a new work. I'll tell you the character of the heroine. Now you play her and then talk to me so I can find some inspiration."

"I'm not very good at acting." Lin Yuehua hesitated slightly.

"You don't need to know how to act, just put yourself in the shoes of others. Give it a try."

"……All right."

Li Zhuangsheng took a deep breath and exhaled slowly: "The male and female protagonists are high school classmates. The female protagonist's family is not very well off and she only has a...sick mother. The male protagonist's family is not bad and he always takes care of the female protagonist. The two quickly became good friends. The male protagonist's grades are not good and it is difficult for him to get into college. The female protagonist has good grades and her goal is to go to Peking University. She will help the male protagonist with his studies, and the two have agreed to go to school in Beijing together..."

Lin Yuehua finally couldn't help interrupting Li Zhuangsheng, looking at him strangely: "Like us?"

"You can understand it this way, there must be a real-life prototype. The story is different later... The heroine's mother got a serious illness and needed someone to take care of her, which also required a lot of money, so the heroine suddenly dropped out of school. Then she got married, and her husband's family paid for her mother's medical treatment, so she didn't go to school anymore. The hero barely got into college, and later became a mediocre writer. The two met again ten years later, when she had two children and was selling things on the street in the snow."

"How pitiful." Lin Yuehua sighed softly and said softly, "Does she like the male lead?"

"I don't know, at least they're good friends... Oh, by the way, before she dropped out of school, she promised to give the hero a small toy. When they met again, she happened to have this thing on her stall, so she secretly put it into the hero's pocket."

"Oh, that's how it is……"

Lin Yuehua then fell silent, perhaps having her own answer. Li Zhuangsheng did not ask.

"Then, let's start?" Li Zhuangsheng said, "Now, you are the heroine ten years later."

"What's the heroine's personality?"

"Don't worry about it, just play according to your personality."

"Then let me think about it..."

Lin Yuehua took a deep breath, closed her eyes, and imagined the characters of the male and female protagonists. They knew each other when they were young, but unexpectedly they were separated. Looking back ten years later, everything has changed. Although the oath is still there, it is difficult to entrust a letter...

She tried her best to imagine the two of them, and the images of herself and Li Zhuangsheng appeared in her mind.

"All right."

Lin Yuehua looked at Li Zhuangsheng, and Li Zhuangsheng looked at Lin Yuehua. "Why didn't you come when we took our graduation photos in high school?" Li Zhuangsheng said.

Lin Yuehua was stunned for a moment, then realized that the story had already begun.

"Because... I'm sorry." Lin Yuehua tried her best to cooperate, imagining herself as the heroine, and stammered, "I don't want to be pointed at by others."

"But I got into college, I thought you would come to congratulate me."

"Well, congratulations, I know you can do it."

"Without your help, I would not have passed the exam."

"It's because you are studying hard."

……

The two of them chatted back and forth. Lin Yuehua was a little shy at first, but gradually she got into the mood.

Li Zhuangsheng suddenly fell silent, looking up at the starry sky above him and sighing deeply. Being alone in the empty space around him magnified his inner anxiety. He smiled with a trembling voice:
"You know, I regret it so much that I even had nightmares several times, dreaming that you asked me for help. I'm sorry, I'm really sorry."

Lin Yuehua was slightly startled: "How have you done anything wrong to me?"

"I was so arrogant back then. I thought I was a savior and that I was helping you like a hero. In the end, I was just playing house... When you really needed help, I backed off and did nothing... I regret it, I really regret it."

Li Zhuangsheng choked with sobs and lowered his head deeply.

The inner demon about Lin Yuehua had tormented him for many years, and the reunion in front of the fruit stand on a snowy night finally brought this resentment to a peak. He wanted to apologize to Lin Yuehua, even though apology was the most useless thing.

Li Zhuangsheng and Li Xiuyu had been to BJ for tourism. After visiting the Old Summer Palace, they suddenly said they wanted to visit the nearby Tsinghua campus. Unfortunately, the security guards refused to let them in because they did not have a reservation.

He stood at the door for a long time, watching the Tsinghua students coming in and out, feeling that some miracle would happen. Maybe in the next moment, a familiar, stern face would appear in front of him, grab his hand and pull him in without saying a word.

Then he could hold his head high and say to Li Xiuyu and those people in the queue: My friend is from Tsinghua University!
Lin Yuehua was a little confused. She didn't know that Li Zhuangsheng had such a talent for acting. She gradually immersed herself in his character and gently stroked Li Zhuangsheng's head: "Don't say sorry, I have never blamed you. You have no obligation to help me. Why do you blame yourself for other people's misfortune? You are such a pushover."

"I'm such a loser, I can't do anything right... I thought I was a genius, but I could only get into a private second-tier university, and I've been writing novels for so many years but I'm still half-baked! But, I, I could have... saved you! I can't do anything, I can't do anything!"

Li Zhuangsheng confessed desperately, clutching the wooden board beneath him tightly, wishing he could punch a hole in it. He sobbed, gritted his teeth, and trembled all over.

Lin Yuehua's heart twitched slightly, and her eyes became softer and more compassionate. She couldn't help but reach out and hug Li Zhuangsheng's head, gently rubbing it:
"My ending is destined and cannot be changed. But at least I feel very happy when I am with you. If I don't have you, I will never experience it. Even if you are not a genius, in my heart, you are the best writer. Even if you don't save me in the end, you are still my hero."

"Don't cry, I forgive you... idiot."

His acting is really good.

Lin Yuehua could feel that Li Zhuangsheng's eyes were looking through her and at another person.

Is it the heroine based on her? She is a little jealous.

It was as if she was the heroine in the story who replaced the prototype, and the heroine in the story was the prototype that Li Zhuangsheng really cared about.

(End of this chapter)