Chapter 159

Li Zhuangsheng remained silent, feeling ashamed and speechless.

Don't say too much when you are in love, or the boomerangs will hit you back one by one.

"Forget it, let's not talk about the past. The more I talk about it, the sadder I get." Hu Mengdie wiped her eyes and took out her homework from her schoolbag. "Don't worry, I'll keep my word. If you tell me not to cry, I won't cry in front of you anymore."

Li Zhuangsheng typed silently on the keyboard, intending to drive Hu Mengdie away with the noise of the keyboard, but now he unconsciously reduced his strength.

One of them was quietly typing on the keyboard, while the other was quietly doing homework.

Sometimes Li Zhuangsheng felt dizzy while writing, so he would raise his head to relax his neck. When he turned around and saw Hu Mengdie sitting next to him, he would be dazed for a moment and almost thought he was still a newlywed.

Of course, the other person's school uniform would wake him up in the blink of an eye and make him realize that everything was just an illusion.

However, if he had really sat with Hu Mengdie like this in high school... how great it would have been. He must have even thought of a name for the third child.

Before he knew it, the afternoon self-study session was almost over. Li Zhuangsheng glanced at the time on his computer, exited the Word document, copied the newly written chapter into a USB drive, and finally closed the computer.

"I don't care about that. I'll throw this away. I'll give you the price. Don't take this again in the future. Emergency contraceptive pills are very harmful to the body. You should pay more attention to your body." Li Zhuangsheng took out Yuting from the cabinet and raised it.

"I haven't eaten it before." Hu Mengdie looked at Li Zhuangsheng, "You must have thought that I was avoiding the main point, right?"

"What do you mean by avoiding the main issue?"

"You obviously still care about the things that happened between me and Qi Haoyu in the past, but I deliberately didn't mention it that day and just brushed it off. I just wanted to prove that I love you, because it would be simpler that way... Then, I couldn't even prove that I love you. But you must be looking down on me for being cunning."

Li Zhuangsheng showed a trace of surprise.

"Actually, there's nothing to be ashamed of. You mind if I have a past." Hu Mengdie lowered her eyes and gently lifted her hair. "Some things can't be helped..."

"You, don't think too much..." Li Zhuangsheng said.

"But!" Hu Mengdie suddenly raised her head and said firmly, "That's only a small part of my life, not all of it! From today on, I will do many things with you that I have never done with anyone else! Things that belong only to you, only to us! In other words, I will only do things with you that I have never done before!"

Li Zhuangsheng was stunned for a moment, but then he heard Hu Mengdie continue:
"I know you mind, so mind it if you mind. At most you can talk to someone else once, then we'll be even. As long as you come to me in the end, it'll be fine. You're such a sensitive person, you should know that Zhu Zhixue likes you, right?"

Li Zhuangsheng blinked his eyes and shook his head solemnly: "I won't do that kind of thing. It's disrespectful to you, to that girl, and to me!"

Hu Mengdie smiled sweetly: "I know you won't, I said that on purpose. If you really date someone else, I might accept it, but I will definitely cry. Even if I promised you that I wouldn't cry anymore, I will still cry and wipe my tears! I will cry every time I see you! I'm just saying this for show. Anyway, I'm giving you a chance. If you insist on your own way, you can't blame me!"

"I know you are really smart and always say cheap words." Li Zhuangsheng couldn't help but grin.

"So you are admitting that you know Zhu Zhixue likes you?" Hu Mengdie said.

"I, I think I felt it..."

Li Zhuangsheng lowered his eyes and thought to himself, when a girl truly likes you, how can you not feel it?

Always looking at you with a smile, always taking the initiative to make physical contact with you, lending a hand for free when you need help, and getting jealous when you get close to other girls...

Li Zhuangsheng is not a stupid dog.

He had sensed Zhu Zhixue's affection for him at the beginning, but he was always unsure because he was both arrogant and inferior at that time.

While he was having unfounded fantasies about his future, he was also thinking, how could a girl as beautiful as Zhu Zhixue like a useless guy?

On one side is fantasy, on the other side is reality.

So he didn't dare to approach actively, fearing that he would become a failed clown, and he just interacted with Zhu Zhixue passively.

If, if, she got closer to me, maybe she really liked me... Li Zhuangsheng hesitated like this back then, and in the end, the two of them parted ways completely.

But at the moment before his rebirth, after meeting Zhu Zhixue, Li Zhuangsheng suddenly figured out a lot of things.

Now, it has been nearly two months since he was reborn. If he is still unable to confirm Zhu Zhixue's feelings, he would be a fool.

Hu Mengdie was nervous and confused: "Then why didn't you think about her? Is it because you care about her past life? Or is it because of me?" She did not mention Lin Yuehua, and she didn't know why. She just didn't want to mention her in front of Li Zhuangsheng, so she avoided the topic.

"It has nothing to do with her past life...Haha, that can't really be called a past life, it's just...another future, where she went astray."

"So you don't care about this. Even she doesn't care, but you care about me... If I hadn't been reborn..."

"If I hadn't been reborn, you wouldn't have fallen for me when you were in high school."

"Please don't say such disappointing things! Why would I definitely not like you? If Zhu Zhixue likes you, then why can't I?"

Hu Mengdie was unhappy about the gap between her and Zhu Zhixue in Li Zhuangsheng's heart.

Although, if she were the person she was back then, she might not have accepted Li Zhuangsheng’s pursuit... but there were so many boys pursuing her, and she was young and overwhelmed by the choices, so it can’t be entirely her fault if she was a little superficial!
"You are different... I roughly know why she likes me... But I am not worthy of her." Li Zhuangsheng paused and said, "It doesn't seem right to say that. I should say that I am not worthy of her love."

"Are you feeling inferior again?" Hu Mengdie frowned and reached out to pinch Li Zhuangsheng's face. "I told you, you are worthy of anyone!"

"I'm not inferior, maybe I was in the past, but not now. I feel very guilty towards her..." Li Zhuangsheng gently slapped Hu Mengdie's hand away, scratched his head and sighed, "Alas, this is not easy to tell anyone! In short, I am not qualified to accept her affection, and it is impossible for me to think about those things now. I am very upset, and now I just want to study hard and get into a good university!"

Li Zhuangsheng got angry again at the end, and Hu Mengdie snorted softly:
"Next time I win the monthly exam, you have to tell me your story!"

"I don't want to hide it from you, but this involves her privacy, I can't tell anyone else... Zhu Zhixue and I don't have any past, we are just friends."

"If you don't want to tell me, forget it!" Hu Mengdie opened the window covered with newspapers and climbed out.

The autumn sunshine was refreshing and bright, the gaps between her hair were glowing, and her eyes were brighter than gems.

Li Zhuangsheng walked to the window and the two looked at each other through the window.

"You go first, I'll leave later."

"Are you afraid that people will see us walking together?" Hu Mengdie tilted her head.

"Yes, I think it will be very troublesome." Li Zhuangsheng answered frankly.

Hu Mengdie smiled and took a deep breath: "Hey, let me tell you something."

"what's up?"

"In fact, I have always been trying to be a good child. What I told you the other day was all true. I didn't make it up just to get your sympathy. I really want to satisfy everyone. When others praise me for being sensible, I want to be more sensible. When others say I am gentle, I want to be more gentle. When others praise me for being beautiful, I want more people to agree with me... For a long time, I couldn't recognize myself. I didn't know what I really wanted, nor what kind of person I wanted to be in the future. I just endured it out of habit to cater to the labels others gave me."

"But, starting today, the me standing in front of you may be closer to the real me. Willful and selfish, not caring about other people's thoughts at all."

"Will you hate me like this? Please don't hate me like this. Only in front of you can I show this side of me as I please!"

Li Zhuangsheng stared blankly at those moon-like eyes, his throat rolling, and then he smiled softly: "If I had known your true nature, I would not have pursued you... But your current personality is also good, just treat me as your most trustworthy friend. In fact, I don't hate you like this."

Hu Mengdie smiled and blinked: "Li Zhuangsheng, look what's over there!"

"What?"

Li Zhuangsheng was distracted for a moment, and suddenly Hu Mengdie kissed him on the lips.

"What are you doing?" Li Zhuangsheng stepped back and wiped his mouth angrily. "If you do this again, I will be really angry! I treat you as a friend, what are you doing!"

"You better be careful next time." Hu Mengdie pointed at Li Zhuangsheng in the classroom and warned him sternly, "I will kiss you every time I see you from now on. You'd better stay alert at all times and don't let me get the chance! I've already informed you!"

"You, your mother..."

Li Zhuangsheng was stunned when he heard this. After a moment, he became furious and trembled with anger. He almost burst into swearing.

Hu Mengdie raised the corner of her mouth, her face full of smugness: "Also, tomorrow at noon, you stay in the classroom, don't come here, the novel will be temporarily suspended for one day!"

(End of this chapter)