Chapter 250 New Year
Li Zhuangsheng's body stiffened and his expression became somewhat numb.

In fact, what happened tonight was completely beyond his previous cognition. He had not thought much about Zhu Zhixue before, and the vagueness of her conversation during the reunion made him have no idea what had happened to her.

He just felt a little guilty. He thought that if he had not been in a bad condition at the time, he would have listened carefully to Zhu Zhixue's words. Maybe he would have understood what happened to her and could have helped her better.

Because of this, Li Zhuangsheng had previously speculated that what Zhu Zhixue meant by "being bullied by bad guys" was most likely the same as Hu Mengke, who was bullied by some gangster girls in school.

Unexpectedly, the truth would be so cruel.

This caused a strong sense of guilt to surge in his heart. What frightened him even more was that he knew clearly but dared not imagine what Zhu Zhixue had experienced and how desperate she was in her heart in the future when nothing had changed for him.

He clearly knew nothing, yet he treated her with tinted glasses. How did she feel when they met again more than ten years later?
It turned out that she did not simply go astray, but because of indelible scars.

"When we were in the first grade, you saved me many times... From that time on, you were my hero... When that bad guy wanted to bully me, I kept wondering if you would show up again, would you come to save me again... Well, it turned out to be true, it was indeed true. You are my hero, you came to save me."

As Zhu Zhixue spoke, she started crying again, but this time her crying was much softer, and sounded more like gentle whispers, as if she were saying love words to Li Zhuangsheng.

So gentle, so affectionate.

Li Zhuangsheng did not move, feeling very embarrassed. It seemed that if he had accepted the award under someone else's name, all the honors should belong to that person. He was shy, so he felt very uncomfortable.

【Okay, you can modify this story. Write that when she was fat and short, she met a boy. He never bullied the little girl and helped her without looking down on her. Oh, by the way, he also gave her a pair of gloves in winter, although they were old! Then they met again in high school. Although the girl became taller, thinner and prettier, the boy still recognized her at first sight, and then the two were together! When the bad guys wanted to bully the girl, the boy drove them away, and the two lived happily together forever! 】

Why didn't I find out earlier? Why didn't I help her? Why didn't I recognize her as Wang Shuangmei? Why did I just watch all this happen?

She obviously trusts me so much, so why should I pretend to be a hero but fail to be a hero to the end?

[Or you can write it like this… The bad girl returns to her hometown in despair. Her mother won’t let her in. She goes to a class reunion. Her former classmates laugh at her. Then the boy from that year stands up and says that the bad girl isn’t that bad anymore, and asks everyone to stop saying bad things about her. Then… the two of them are still good friends. The girl opens a barbecue restaurant, and she does a booming business while singing live.]

Li Zhuangsheng's body trembled, and he suddenly understood the meaning of Zhu Zhixue's words on that snowy night.

I'm sorry, I'm not your hero, I'm sorry.

"In fact, sometimes I really envy those little hooligans. They are free and unfettered, riding their little airplanes like the wind, fearless and living so carefree... Hehe, ridiculous, you are right, what's so good about them... Li Zhuangsheng, Li Zhuangsheng... I like you."

"I've liked you since the first grade of junior high school. I know I'm not worthy of you, but I really like you... You're all I can think of... When I found out you were also in Xingpeng in high school, do you know how happy I was? But I'm a big fool, I'm just a big fool. I've always hoped that you could recognize me, because I think that would prove that you also have me in your heart... I'm such a big fool!"

Zhu Zhixue cried again, clumsily and frankly pouring out her heart to the lover she had been in love with for more than four years!

Li Zhuangsheng's eyes wavered and his mind was in a mess. It was not until today that he realized that he had been loved so purely and passionately by a girl. But he had disappointed her, not saving her ten years ago, nor at the class reunion ten years later.

How can there be such a stupid person who is sure that I will still help you?
"Because you are my light, my motivation to live... You know, sometimes I feel so painful that I want to die. It's really painful... When I was the saddest, I thought, it would be great if I could die like a mermaid. I want to jump into the sea, but there is no sea here, so I can jump into the lake in Xiangshan Park... When you were in the first grade of junior high school, you told me that when you died in the future, you wanted your ashes to be scattered there. Hehe, it is really beautiful there... If I commit suicide, I will definitely choose there, just like a mermaid, turning into foam in the sea..."

"What did you say..." Li Zhuangsheng raised his head in panic, as if his whole body was electrocuted.

[What happened next?] [Then... the little girl turned into foam in the sea, just like the mermaid!]

"I said, if I commit suicide someday, I will definitely look like a mermaid..."

"No, no! You can't die!"

Li Zhuangsheng subconsciously hugged Zhu Zhixue.

Tears fell instantly and his mentality almost collapsed.

An extremely terrifying thought arose in his mind, a reality that he had never dared to imagine, but was very likely to happen.

His heart suddenly contracted and he wanted to retch again. His mind went blank and he felt like someone was strangling him. He was in so much pain that he couldn't breathe.

"So tight...you're holding me so tight!"

Zhu Zhixue frowned in pain, but a happy smile appeared in her eyes.

Li Zhuangsheng was shaking all over and crying silently. He already had the answer, but he didn't dare to think about the terrible result. He wanted to escape, so he could only hug Zhu Zhixue tightly at this moment.

It was as if he had not missed anything, and she was still there. Even if it was self-deception, he had to believe this result!

Zhu Zhixue rubbed Li Zhuangsheng's shoulder: "I won't die, I was just joking with you. With you by my side, how could I want to die?"

"Well, well, you don't have to die, you are not allowed to die!" Li Zhuangsheng's voice trembled, but he was at a loss for words and could not say anything else.

"Why are you crying too..."

Zhu Zhixue reached out to wipe away Li Zhuangsheng's tears, then slowly leaned towards Li Zhuangsheng's lips, her eyes timid and tentative, carefully observing his expression.

"Don't worry, even if I have to die, I will definitely go to see you for the last time... As long as you don't let me die, I will definitely not die..."

At twelve o'clock, the New Year finally arrived. Countless firecrackers exploded in the night sky, celebrating a brand new beginning.

After years of longing, Zhu Zhixue finally got to kiss her beloved's lips as she wished. The sound was sandy and mixed with the salty taste of tears.

Li Zhuangsheng let her kiss him without resistance. The gray rhino finally slowly crashed into him and smashed him to pieces.

【Happy New Year! I wish you good luck, success in studies and everything goes well in the new year. 】

In my pocket, Lin Yuehua sent me a text message of blessing on time.

(End of this chapter)