Chapter 275

If at that time... he really fell asleep. If he didn't know that Lin Yuehua kissed him and his love was not broken, would he not be so depressed?

He might even deceive himself and comfort himself by thinking that Lin Yuehua wouldn't care that much and that she was not the kind of person who cared about the private affairs of children.

But there was that kiss, there was that kiss.

Damn it, damn it! I was so sleepy, why didn’t I fall asleep? Li Zhuangsheng tossed and turned countless times, but all his struggles were in vain.

He had never been angry with Zhu Zhixue, even though it was Zhu Zhixue who pushed him step by step to draw a line between him and Lin Yuehua. But from Zhu Zhixue's perspective, this was completely understandable. Which girl could accept that her boyfriend had an affair with another girl?

Even Li Zhuangsheng could no longer say with a clear conscience that there was nothing innocent between him and Lin Yuehua after that kiss.

That's so hypocritical.

So Zhu Zhixue’s request is reasonable. You have been kissed and touched. What fantasy do you still want to keep? Are you trying to be indecisive?
It was me who, as a boyfriend, did not do a good enough job and made my girlfriend feel uneasy.

Li Zhuangsheng looked out the window. The sky was covered with dark clouds and dead branches were swaying in the wind. He felt a biting cold just by looking at it.

Three or four days have passed since returning from the hospital, and Li Zhuangsheng and Lin Yuehua have not sent each other a text message, and of course have not made any phone calls.

He remembered that he walked straight into the elevator after he finished speaking, and did not look back until the elevator door closed. Therefore, he did not have to face Lin Yuehua, and had no way of knowing the expression on her face.

I remember that when the two met again, Lin Yuehua seemed to have turned her back like this.

Li Zhuangsheng didn't want to think about it. He had been dreaming about Lin Yuehua's gloomy smile in the future these days. Perhaps Lin Yuehua next to the elevator had the same expression.

I was writing my homework silently. No matter how strong the wind was outside, it couldn't blow into the house at all. It was unusually quiet.

Li Zhuangsheng turned off the air conditioner as he felt a bit stuffy.

At this time, a text message from the bank was sent to his mobile phone. Li Zhuangsheng took a look and found that the royalties had arrived.

After hesitating for a moment, Li Zhuangsheng got up and went out.

"Do you want to go out..."

He walked to the door of Li Xiuyu's bedroom, pushed the door open without knocking, but his voice soon stopped.

Li Xiuyu is taking a nap.

Seeing this, Li Zhuangsheng quietly retreated. He leaned on the sofa, looked at the wind outside, and decided to go out immediately.

Should I wear a scarf? Li Zhuangsheng thought.

Forget it. The hood of the down jacket is buttoned tightly, so there is no need to wear a scarf.

Li Zhuangsheng walked out quickly and rode his electric scooter.

The temperature today is not as low as before the New Year, but the wind is still chilly and it feels even colder than before.

Li Zhuangsheng didn't care anymore because he felt bored and urgently needed to get some fresh air, especially in such a strong wind.

He rode the electric bike, imagining himself as a motorcycle racer. It was as if he was riding a Hammer instead of an electric bike. He was a little breathless due to the wind several times, and he kept the accelerator pedal to the bottom. This feeling was great, cold and refreshing. His head was frozen.

Arriving at the center of the county, Li Zhuangsheng found an empty parking spot. Perhaps because of the weather today, few people were out, and there were empty spots for electric bicycles everywhere.

"You're still out in such a strong wind?"

Suddenly, a familiar voice came into his ears. Li Zhuangsheng turned around and saw that it was Hu Mengdie. She was wearing a white down jacket, with her hair pinned behind her head. She had an extraordinary gentle and elegant beauty.

"Didn't you come out too?" Li Zhuangsheng took a step back and smiled.

"It's windy like this, it's a good time to get some fresh air." Hu Mengdie said nonchalantly, "You think so too."

Her tone was flat and there was a subtle quietness in her eyes.

"No." Li Zhuangsheng lowered his head, "I just came out to buy something."

"You still can't lie. People can see it at a glance." Hu Mengdie shook her head. "Lin Yuehua knows?"

"what do you know?"

"I know that you and Zhu Zhixue are together."

"I told her the last time I visited her grandmother."

"I knew it." Hu Mengdie smiled slightly, her eyes still unfathomably calm, like the dark night sky, "Zhu Zhixue will definitely let you do this, and you will definitely confess."

"This has nothing to do with Zhu Zhixue. Even if she doesn't say anything, I won't hide it."

"You must be in a lot of pain now. In fact, you like Lin Yuehua more than Zhu Zhixue... Zhu Zhixue's love is too heavy, and you feel unworthy of it. In fact, from my perspective as an outsider, Lin Yuehua is indeed more suitable for you than Zhu Zhixue."

Li Zhuangsheng was silent at first, but suddenly he realized what was going on and said, "I think Zhu Zhixue is great!"

Hu Mengdie curved her lips and said, "But unfortunately, she is not Lin Yuehua... If you choose Zhu Zhixue, you will have no chance to meet Lin Yuehua. It's really a pity."

"What do you want to say? There's no need to sow discord like this. Zhu Zhixue and I have a good relationship now!" Li Zhuangsheng was a little angry and embarrassed.

"You are the man I love the most. Even if we break up, I still hope you can be happy." Hu Mengdie chuckled, "Believe me, I really hope you can be happy."

"Then you don't have to say anything. I'm very happy now."

"That's why I'm so angry. Zhu Zhixue is such a selfish person. She is morally blackmailing you for her own happiness. In fact, I can guess the general reason why you and Zhu Zhixue are together."

"I said, she didn't blackmail me, I just wanted to be with her! I did it voluntarily, I wasn't forced!"

"You didn't volunteer, you just accepted your fate." Hu Mengdie looked at Li Zhuangsheng calmly, but he felt aggressive, "You just think Zhu Zhixue is okay and worth your acceptance. Besides, her future is so miserable because you didn't realize her feelings in high school."

"I'm too lazy to tell you! Anyway, I like her very much!" Li Zhuangsheng turned around and was about to leave, although mentally, he seemed to be fleeing.

"Don't think that other people's suffering is your own fault. You are not a saint, nor are you God. Other people's suffering is not caused by you. This includes me. I love you, but it has nothing to do with you. I hope you can treat yourself well."

Li Zhuangsheng stopped and turned to look at Hu Mengdie with a complicated look.

Hu Mengdie smiled and waved gently: "Today is the day when you get your manuscript fee. You came down to buy a gift for Zhu Zhixue, right?"

"Don't like me...you should also be kind to yourself."

"You can't control your feelings. You should know this very well." Hu Mengdie blinked and slowly lowered her head. "Go ahead."

Li Zhuangsheng was slightly stunned. This sad atmosphere seemed to be saying goodbye... as if she was going to a very far place.

(End of this chapter)