Chapter 90 Internalization (Two in One)

In this regard, Li Zhuangsheng also wanted to comfort himself. When Tan Qian wrote "Guoqie", his twenty years of hard work was stolen overnight, but he also cheered up and rewrote it. Now, who in elementary school has not learned "Faith that cannot be defeated by misfortune"?
Anyone can say a lot of empty truths, but when faced with something like this, who can accept it calmly?
Kafka said it well, any difficulty can knock me down!
We novelists have such fragile hearts!
But at this moment, Li Zhuangsheng still accepted this reality. It is never a big truth that can heal the pain, but time.

He decided to rewrite his novel for the purpose of making money. He wanted to make about 200,000 yuan within a year, and then he could lend it to Lin Yuehua. This goal was not difficult for him, as long as he had a good book.

There are more than one way to get money, and the most direct and convenient one is to ask Li Minghua for help. As long as Li Zhuangsheng lied to him that Lin Yuehua was his future daughter-in-law, I believe he could get the money legally to help his "daughter-in-law". After Li Zhuangsheng finished the college entrance examination, he could use his own royalties to pay back the money more calmly...

In short, there are many ways to make money, but serializing novels before the college entrance examination is undoubtedly the stupidest one.

But Li Zhuangsheng still deeply hated his powerlessness last time, and if he wanted to wash away this sense of shame, he couldn't rely on others this time. Not at all.

He is a veteran in the online literature circle. He dare not say that all the books he writes will be a big hit, but he knows what to write to get results. Moreover, online literature has been evolving over the past ten years, and so have the fun points. Even if he does not repeat what he has written, it is completely fine to write a brand new book.

He can even imitate those "masterpieces" that will be famous in the future, and maybe take his "writing career" to the next level. Now it is 13 years, and two books with " subscriptions" can be promoted to a great writer.

In the end, Li Zhuangsheng thought again and again and decided to repeat his original old book. Although the book was at least six years old, Li Zhuangsheng had long forgotten the details, and the effort required to rewrite it was no different from writing a new book.

However, using rebirth to seize other people's "famous works" to make profits for oneself is no different from stealing. Li Zhuangsheng does not want to do this, even if no one will know, even if this may allow him to be promoted to "Great God" or even "Platinum", rather than looking at the insurmountable chasm between "level 5" and "Great God" ten years later and mocking himself: "When I was young, I was conceited with my lofty pen, but now, my youth has faded, and I am filled with desolation."

Writing a new book is worth considering. For an author, repeating something he has written before is like chewing gum that has lost its flavor.

"But she said so..."

Looking at the familiar book titles on the computer, Li Zhuangsheng sighed and smiled helplessly.

Qin Luanyu was still a primary school student at this time, and her mother must have been bedridden for a long time. If I remember correctly, she seemed to have passed away this year.

Li Zhuangsheng's eyes flashed with the scene of Qin Luanyu crying and thanking him when they parted... So, the village chief Chu, who always pestered him to chat, was so miserable before this?
Others would not care, but that was Village Chief Chu, his friend and benefactor for many years. How could Li Zhuangsheng forget her after she said such words?

I wonder if she will see this book, which was published more than three years in advance, but I think she will.

I know you are in pain now. I hope you can still see this book. Please come to me after reading it. I will be happy to chat with you again... Li Zhuangsheng said in his heart.

"Fairy Chu's daily life..."

Li Zhuangsheng stretched himself, feeling a little tired even though he hadn't written a single word. This was his old problem, he would get sleepy whenever he tried to write.

If he could, he really didn't want to write this book. This is his early work, and there are big problems with the text, plot, and rhythm... Of course, with his current level, these can be corrected.

This book became famous at the time because of its subject matter. It tells the story of a cross-dressing man with a male body and female appearance, who hides his gender and seduces men from all walks of life to see their ugly sides exposed.

Although it is a novel aimed at men, and because it was Li Zhuangsheng's first time writing a book and he could not stop himself, he crammed nearly twenty female "harems" into the book in one go, but because the subject matter is interesting, female readers account for a quarter of the book.

The birth of Chu Xianzi originated from the "transformation literature" that was popular at the time. The content was roughly about the protagonist, who turned from a man into a woman and used his gender advantage to flirt with beautiful girls. Li Zhuangsheng used to like reading this kind of novel very much, but he always felt sorry that after the protagonist transformed, there was no big baby to be with the girl, so there was always something missing...

He felt that there should be many readers who had the same idea as him, so he came up with the idea of ​​writing a yuri novel with a big baby as the protagonist, which might be popular in the market.

At first, Li Zhuangsheng just wanted to write a slightly special transformation article, but the content he wrote was on the evil path of "seducing men".

The reason for this was the conflict between Li Zhuangsheng and his roommate during that period.

When he was in college, he had a trendy roommate who behaved in a rather frivolous manner. Although Li Zhuangsheng didn't like it, given his personality, he just got along peacefully with the other person in a polite manner.

It was not until the sophomore year that the roommate took a fancy to a girl with big breasts and said in the dormitory that he would definitely get her, using very vulgar words to describe her. Listening to the other people in the dormitory following suit, Li Zhuangsheng frowned secretly.

He knew the kind of person his roommate was. He had no respect for his girlfriends and always spoke of them in a derogatory and insulting manner in the dormitory. He even had been playing two girls at the same time in his last relationship, and he was always quite proud of it and didn't feel any guilt at all.

More than a week after the other party said this, he announced in the dormitory that he had succeeded in getting the other party.

The other party still did not change his behavior of humiliating and belittling his girlfriend in front of other roommates, and would still go on dates with what he called "PY" on weekends. Li Zhuangsheng could only pretend he heard nothing and never say a word while others laughed and agreed.

But one time, the roommate actually played a song that Li Zhuangsheng was familiar with in the dormitory: "Secret Base ~ Kimigakuretamono ~". This is the ED of the anime "Anohana", one of Li Zhuangsheng's favorite songs at that time.

"Do you like this song too?" Li Zhuangsheng was surprised.

"My boyfriend sent it to me and insisted that I listen to it." The roommate shrugged.

"Your partner is a second-dimensional person?"

"Yeah, stupid 2D, so hypocritical."

Li Zhuangsheng stopped talking, climbed onto his bed and silently scrolled through his phone. His favorite melody echoed in the dormitory, and he felt sad for the schoolgirl he had never met.

Then, after the National Day, the roommate borrowed 200 yuan from Li Zhuangsheng, saying that he wanted to get a room with his girlfriend. They finally made progress to this step. Before that, the roommate made a bet with someone in the dormitory that he would get a room within a month, and he did it.

The roommate also knew that Li Zhuangsheng was rich. Li Zhuangsheng had just said the day before that his living expenses had arrived. Before that, Li Zhuangsheng and him had a good relationship, at least on the surface. Li Zhuangsheng should be willing to lend him a mere 200 yuan. After all, Li Zhuangsheng was not a stingy person.

Li Zhuangsheng really didn't care about the two hundred, but when faced with his roommate's request to borrow money, he became hesitant.

He didn't want to lend it because his roommate was a scumbag, because his roommate always humiliated his girlfriend in the dormitory, because his roommate said his girlfriend was still a virgin, and because Li Zhuangsheng felt that he should not become an accomplice in harming girls... But, after all, they were roommates living under the same roof, how could he lose face by not lending it?
What finally made him make up his mind was the song "Secret Base~君がくれたもの~".

"I don't have any money," he said stubbornly.

Even though everyone in the dormitory knew he was lying.

Even though he knew that he was not the only one in the dormitory, and that if he didn't borrow the money, someone else would, he couldn't stop it.

When he came back from the weekend, his roommate naturally showed off his "achievements" in the dormitory. The dormitory was as noisy as usual, but his relationship with the other party became strained from then on.

Not long after, the introverted Li Zhuangsheng moved out of the dormitory and rented a house outside the school, where he could write freely. He heard that his roommate had dumped his girlfriend again, and that the girl came to the dormitory and cried and begged for reconciliation but to no avail. He also heard that his roommate had set his sights on a senior girl again...

It's only two hundred yuan, why bother? You can't change any reality. What does it have to do with you if someone has a girlfriend? Why are you pretending to be a good person? This is why others never lack partners, while you can only imagine it.

Li Zhuangsheng was shaken for a while, so he wrote about Fairy Chu with a self-deprecating mood. All the male characters who were seduced and bewitched by Fairy Chu had his shadow. He imagined that the readers laughed at the ugly appearance of these male characters who had lustful thoughts but no courage.

Fortunately, Li Zhuangsheng's mental exhaustion did not last long, because the book became unexpectedly popular and he could earn several thousand yuan in royalties every month for writing a chapter a day. This was undoubtedly a huge sum of money for Li Zhuangsheng, who was just an ordinary college student at the time.

People are always happy and kind when they have money. Instead of worrying about such unimportant things, it is better to take Li Xiuyu, who lives in the same city, out to eat, drink and have fun every weekend.

During their college years, they visited all the scenic spots in Nanjing, big and small. When they had no classes, they would go out on Friday afternoons, stay in a hotel for three days, and get up in a hurry on Monday morning to go back to school... Those days were really happy.

Now that I think about it, I deserve to be single. I only thought of inviting Li Xiuyu to eat, drink and have fun when I have money... Ugh, I have money but I don't give it to my family. Do I spend money chasing girls? I can't get rid of the dog-licking mentality!

Li Zhuangsheng took a deep breath and threw away all distracting thoughts.

Whether it was that roommate he disliked or that junior schoolmate he had never met, it was impossible for him to meet them again.

He sometimes recalled the past. If he were the present self who could go back to that time, knowing full well that he could not stop the other party if he did not lend the money, and might even be isolated by the other party... would he still refuse to lend the two hundred yuan?
Li Zhuangsheng thought about it many times, and the result was always the same: I have no money.

Who cares about those people's isolation? I'm so happy to move out and live alone! I don't have to endure a small dormitory without air conditioning, I don't have to endure other people's second-hand smoke, I don't have to endure those stupid comments, I don't have to endure the lights being turned off at 11 o'clock!

The most important thing is that he can have fun with Li Xiuyu every week. As long as Li Xiuyu is there, he will never be alone, and he will not be lonely in college.

Li Zhuangsheng tapped away on the keyboard, recalling the original outline... Hey, does Fairy Chu really have such a thing as an outline?

Forget it, just make it up now, as long as the content of the novel keeps the original style as much as possible. Can the original style really be kept?

Li Zhuangsheng knew that the biggest obstacle at the moment was not memory loss, but the change in his mentality.

When he wrote Fairy Chu, he was a feminist at heart, but now so many years have passed and the version has been changed... Now he has turned 170 degrees, if not 180 degrees.

Try not to bring this mood into the novel... Li Zhuangsheng secretly reminded himself that boxing is not popular yet.

I sat in front of the computer for more than two hours and wrote an outline of more than 2,000 words.

That's almost enough. I'll sort out the characters and plot during the holidays. I can take time to write at noon when I go to school. There are nearly two hours at noon. If I go fast, I can write 4,000 words... The writing style is not important. This kind of writing mainly relies on the sexy plot.

I feel like I will be in a rush, I have never been so rushed before. I can save some drafts before posting.

Li Zhuangsheng made plans for his new book, turned off his computer, and went to bed to play with his mobile phone.

Today’s mobile phones are not as bloated as they will be in the future, and there are not many apps. The most commonly used ones are Tieba, Buka Comics and Pudding Animation.

The former allows you to read comics for free, and the latter allows you to watch anime for free. In the "golden age" of rampant piracy in 13, these two apps were considered the holy grail of countless otakus... although they both died later.

Looking at these icons that only exist in his memory, Li Zhuangsheng narrowed his eyes slightly, feeling a little nostalgic, and sighed that it has been a long time since I last saw his youth.

He remembered that when Pudding Animation was still alive, almost all the anime series could be found for free, and on Valentine's Day, the covers of all the anime series would be changed to "FFF Group", which was very interesting.

Later, no one mentioned the "FFF Group" anymore, and even fewer and fewer people knew the origin of this meme.

Buka Comics originally had quite a few restricted-level works, all of which were apparently hidden, and one could only search and complete them by clicking on some people’s homepages and reading the book reviews they had left behind.

During this period, there was a legend of "Top Ten Masterpieces" in Buka Comics, which were actually a few meaningless works of curiosity, similar to the "Twelve Magical Weapons" in the galgame bar. Li Zhuangsheng had read them because of their reputation, and found most of them disgusting. The only one that he thought was normal was "My Sister, Childhood Sweetheart, Classmate, Senior, and Junior in the Prime of Our Life".

This short comic tells the atypical development of a typical harem man. After conquering all the heroines, the heroine has been reluctant to date any of them, which leads to the heroines engaging in a real-life battle royale in a villa. The one who survives to the end can be with the hero... Such a bloody and yandere comic brought great shock and shadow to Li Zhuangsheng, who was a pure love boy at the time.

Later, these two apps were hit hard.

Li Zhuangsheng was bored and opened the comic book, looking through his collection. After being punched, most of the comics could not be opened. Later, he switched to "Zhuizhui Comics", but unfortunately, Zhuizhui died soon... The era of big copyright has arrived.

Since his rebirth, Li Zhuangsheng has had too many things to do, so he has never watched anime. He is really an unqualified otaku...

Seriously speaking, he has long failed to be a otaku.

Even in the future, he watched less and less anime.

I no longer follow anime, I just read the introduction of new anime, silently note the anime I am interested in, and when it is finished, I will download it and watch it all at once if I remember it, otherwise forget it. I rarely read comics anymore, I am too lazy to follow them.

This is certainly due to the complicated viewing threshold in the copyright era, but he still read the original comics of "Heaven's Lost Property" and "God Knows" page by page on his computer, despite countless annoying pop-up ads.

I no longer have the enthusiasm to watch anime, promote gals, and read light novels day and night when I was in high school.

Before his rebirth, Li Zhuangsheng read a male-oriented romance comic book. The male protagonist was a sixteen-year-old high school student, and the female protagonist was a twenty-six-year-old office worker.

He didn't like this setting very much, thinking that the heroine was too old. She was already an old aunt... But then he thought again, this "old aunt" was the same age as him.

He always likes young male protagonists and doesn't like office worker male protagonists. But why does he naturally bring in high school students, even though he is no longer a high school student.

Maybe I subconsciously think that the second dimension is something that children like. Watching anime means that I haven't grown up.

Now that he has grown up, he naturally doesn't like watching anime anymore.

　This chapter is very important to the male protagonist, it is not a water
　　
　
(End of this chapter)