Chapter 344 Letter from Father
Li Yufei didn't sleep well that night.

Lying in bed, I kept thinking about what my father said.

In fact, she had already decided to go to the Affiliated High School of Xiangnan Normal University. Of course, she would be reluctant to leave. It was not easy to leave a school where she had lived for 5 and a half years, where she had spent most of her youth, and where she had so many good friends and classmates. But for her, the more difficult things were, the less likely she would change them once she had made the decision.

Li Yufei turned her head and looked at the dark sky outside the window.

It was another long night, the world was filled with the sound of wind and snow hitting the ground, there was no light, no warmth. Her feet felt a little cold, so she curled up and pulled the quilt tighter.

It was late at night, and she didn't know if she was asleep. She closed her eyes, and her consciousness was between clear and vague, but there was always someone walking back and forth in her empty heart.

What kind of girl's sorrow is this that no one can tell?
She didn't know, but it would pass.

The sun will rise as usual.

She would never allow herself to be that vulnerable.

Would she use pity and humility to win back the other person? It's probably worthless to humiliate herself like this. What can she do? All she can do is not to embarrass herself or others, listen to less sad songs when she's in a bad mood, find food for herself when she's hungry, turn on the lights when she's afraid of the dark, and buy what she wants herself. She can't magnify her pain with hypocrisy and self-pity.

However, at night, she would still toss and turn all night, unable to sleep, with that person and the last bit of warm fantasy in her mind.

When I woke up the next day, it was already eight o'clock.

She opened the curtains. The heavy snow outside had stopped. The camphor trees on both sides were all broken in the middle, and the branches were covered with thick ice. It seemed as if the whole world was frozen. It looked very desolate. The road was like a ruin, with ice and snow everywhere. The city was only black and white.

Li Yufei felt empty inside.

At this time, her mother, who was frying eggs in the kitchen, called her for breakfast. Li Yufei came to her senses and responded. She closed the curtains and turned to change her clothes, but unexpectedly found a piece of letter paper on the desk with her father's neat handwriting on it.

Without thinking much, she spread out the letter and started reading.

Yufei:

I'm worried about your condition lately.

In another 135 days, you will be 18 years old and become an adult; in another 196 days, you will step into the college entrance examination, the first big test of your life. This should be the most important period of your life, and naturally there will be many worries for young people who are not familiar with the world.

As a father, I feel ashamed that I have neglected you due to my busy work, so I decided to write this letter to tell you what is in my mind.

You have always been a girl with a perfect personality, and your mother has high expectations for you. In recent years, in addition to studying, you have often learned some artistic skills such as playing the piano, singing, dancing, etc. I have always neither supported nor opposed it.

Einstein once said that not all important things can be considered, and things that can be considered may not be really important. My child, this is a very reasonable saying. When you step into this stage of life, you will inevitably have a lot of hesitation and confusion in your studies, skills, life or love. It is impossible to cover everything. Everything has its own rules.

Here, the experience that Dad can give you is to let everything in life follow your own time and rhythm, read more, think more, exercise more, and make more friends. These will be of great benefit to your future life, and give you the power to choose a way to live that you like. However, you don't have to try to do everything the best. In the face of difficulties, you can fall down, but remember to stand up; in the face of failure, you can cry, but remember to grow up.

If you can't do anything when you grow up, it doesn't matter. It really doesn't matter. Believe in Dad, don't be sad even if you don't achieve anything. Most people don't have achievements recognized by the world. You don't have to be a minority. It's good to be ordinary. If you go to college, you are my child; if you sweep the streets, you are also my child. As long as you maintain a noble character, sweeping the streets can also sweep out a bright and pure world. About love.

Yes, Dad also wants to talk to you about love.

As a traditional father, I thought this was a sacred topic.

Not many people of my generation fell in love freely. Most of them got married first and then fell in love. It was the same with my parents. In the view of marriage of our older generation, marriage is for life, and it is important to be well-matched and arranged by a matchmaker. But you are very different. You were born under the red flag, grew up in the spring breeze, walked with the new China, and connected with the world trend. In the cognition of your generation, a good marriage is for the rest of your life, not living together. What you want is the only soul that fits you in this world.

What a blessing.

Dad is sincerely happy that you can live in such an era where thoughts are gradually becoming more open and love is free.

Dad knows that the person you love is Zhang Yunqi. Dad also sincerely hopes that you can be together. However, I have to say that I don’t know what your relationship with Zhang Yunqi is like at present, and what Zhang Yunqi’s attitude towards you is. Last night, I learned from your words the real reason why you want to transfer to the Affiliated High School of Normal University. This shows that there is a big problem between you, and you are even trying to stay away from him.

Is this the right approach?
Is this a sincere attitude towards love?
Dad is sorry that I can't give you an answer.

This has always been the thing I am most powerless to do. I can't be your guide on the road of love, nor can I help you relieve the inevitable distress. The taste of love, the little bit of joy, anger, sorrow, speculation and hesitation, can only be felt by you in your youth.

Here, what Dad can tell you is that if you fall in love, I will be very happy, and it doesn't matter if you delay your studies. Love is always sweet at the beginning, and there may be all kinds of tastes afterwards, bitter or astringent, but the initial sweetness is still fascinating. You don't have to rush, and taste it carefully. However, if your relationship with Zhang Yunqi has reached a certain point, and you have realized that no matter how hard you try, you have no chance, then Dad hopes that you can give up.

In the world of love, persistence and affection are not completely positive. If the direction is wrong and the other party has no emotional resonance with you, then everything you give for the other party and any action you take will only be harassment.

Children, do not do to others what you would have others do to you.

If one day, Zhang Yunqi said to you: "I'm sorry."

Please smile and say "Thank you."

The above are some of my father’s inner thoughts. You hate preaching, but I still talk a lot. I don’t expect to point out the direction of your life. When you feel confused, these words can give you a little comfort, which is enough.

Finally, Dad wants to say one more thing. As long as it does not involve personality or cross-line issues, you don't need to tell me what happened between Zhang Yunqi and you, and you don't need to tell me about your little conflicts and unhappiness. This is not only because Dad respects your personal privacy, but also because when he does anything to hurt you, you will forgive him, but I won't.

Mom and Dad don’t have any requirements for you, so just enjoy your youth and don’t leave any regrets for yourself.

We are always proud of you.

——Your father, Li Jilin.

——At home in Longjingyuan in the early morning of January 1995.1.23, .

(End of this chapter)