Chapter 270 Lost Soul
Li Zhuangsheng told the story calmly. This time he was not excited and had no special purpose. He seemed to be standing aside and telling someone else's story.

"For a moment I was thinking, let it be, if you don't kiss me, there are plenty of people who will... Haha, sorry, sorry, this thought is really vulgar and low, isn't it? I apologize for having such a thought, it is indeed very rude and disrespectful, but it's great to have a girl who loves me so much, the sense of security of being loved makes me happy."

"I don't have to doubt whether she loves me or not, or whether she is being insincere. I don't have to worry about touching her or joking with her, which might offend her or make her unhappy. I can like her without any scruples, because I know that all my sincerity towards her will be rewarded...even far more than what I have given."

Hu Mengdie's lips moved, but only slightly, without making any sound. Perhaps because she had been standing for too long, her legs felt weak, and she wanted to go home and lie down to rest.

"Oh, you told me about your father, that you lacked love so you longed for others to be nice to you and neglected to give back? I don't know if you were like this when you were with someone in high school, and I can't verify it now. But you didn't show me the smile in the video... I'm not saying that you must like that person more, or that they must be true love. After all, that ten-second video can't fully explain anything, and it's like a frame-up to accuse you... But, I've been thinking today, why is Zhu Zhixue so happy with me, but Hu Mengdie was always so indifferent?"

Li Zhuangsheng seemed to be questioning Hu Mengdie in front of her, but his tone was unusually calm, with only a slight ripple that soon faded away.

Hu Mengdie was in a daze, the street lights were cold and dim. It was so cold, so cold, she wanted to put her hands in her pockets to warm them up.

"The reason doesn't matter at all. What difference does it make whether you like me or not? I feel like you are a shrewd calculator, calculating how much investment I should make in me to reach the passing line. Actually, this is not wrong, but you must not have been like this from the beginning. Oh... hehe, why do I sound like a nagging woman when I talk like this?"

"I don't know what love is, but when you said you loved me, I felt so embarrassed. But when Zhu Zhixue said she loved me, I had no doubts and even felt guilty because I didn't love her that much."

"With a girl who loves me, it's only natural for me to be responsible for her, right? Oh, I know what you want to ask. Yes, I still have some special feelings for you because you are my first love and my first wife, but I believe this will eventually fade away. Maybe in a few years, when I look back, I will think I was so naive and ridiculous. In fact, I feel really sorry for Zhu Zhixue for feeling this way. She understands and tolerates me, so I can only treat her better."

"Hu Mengdie, you're actually quite nice, but not the kind of nice I want. Since I'm not your first love, it doesn't matter if it's not me in the future. I'm not your inevitable choice. But Zhu Zhixue firmly chose me from the beginning, and I'm willing to believe that I'm the one she'll spend the rest of her life with."

"You can understand that I still care about the first time, or you can understand that I want the innocent love of a child. Whatever you think makes sense. But at least, when I kissed her, it was pure happiness without any doubt."

"I'm telling you all this for no other purpose than to explain my thoughts to you. It's my fault for breaking my promise. I've found a new love less than half a year after my divorce. You can resent me, I'm sorry, but I've found the girl who loves me the most in the world. I don't expect you to bless me, I just hope you can let it go and find another boy who only loves you. You're so gentle and beautiful, it must be much easier for you than it is for me."

Li Zhuangsheng finally finished speaking his mind and let out a long breath. Although he was long-winded and a bit disorganized, at least he made himself clear.

He stared at Hu Mengdie's face, but still couldn't see clearly. And he didn't know since when, Hu Mengdie stopped saying a word.

Li Zhuangsheng rubbed his hands gently, and his heart tightened. This time he really didn't have any special purpose, neither to provoke her, nor to vent, nor to torture Hu Mengdie.

His mood was not completely calm, but he had tried his best to be calm and objective. He was speaking from his heart, and based on his past experience with her, Hu Mengdie was not an unreasonable person.

"Ah."

After waiting for a long time, he finally got Hu Mengdie's response. Although it was just a light "hmm", Li Zhuangsheng finally breathed a sigh of relief, assuming that this was a positive response. "Then I'll leave first. It's so cold, you should go back early..." Li Zhuangsheng laughed dryly and whispered, "As for your sister Meng Ke, you should pay more attention to her after school starts. I suggest you communicate with her more so that she can have a good attitude, and then communicate with their teachers. If it doesn't work, transfer to another school. Although there is still half a year before the transition from primary school to junior high school, you should transfer when encountering such a thing... If you encounter difficulties in transferring schools, just tell me and I will find someone for you. If you still have similar problems after transferring schools, you can also come to me to discuss..."

Li Zhuangsheng was about to leave, but he couldn't help but say a lot in the end. But after he finished speaking, he found it funny, this was really too nosy.

"I'm really leaving. You should go home early." Li Zhuangsheng got on the electric bike and stepped on the kickstand.

He left without looking back, afraid that if he looked back and saw Hu Mengdie crying, he would feel distressed again. This would be unfair to Zhu Zhixue.

The cold wind whistled in his ears, and he almost thought it was someone crying. He could only step on the accelerator and speed away.

Li Zhuangsheng had been gone for a long time, but Hu Mengdie was still standing there in a daze. The cold street lights shone on her, and she looked frozen like an ice sculpture.

After an unknown amount of time, Hu Mengdie slowly squatted down on the side of the road and buried her face in her knees. She had gotten almost everything she wanted to know, and she was so tired now. She wanted to go home and rest, but her heart was weak and she didn't have the slightest bit of strength.

Even though she was right at the entrance of the community, only a few steps away from home.

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"You just wanted to take her home, why did you come back so late?"

In the living room, on the sofa, Li Xiuyu, who had been waiting for a long time, looked at Li Zhuangsheng suspiciously.

"She sat for a while. She was scared because of what happened yesterday." Li Zhuangsheng smiled. It was reassuring to see Li Xiuyu's face when he returned home.

"You value women over your sister. If you're worried about her going home alone, then you should let me go home alone!" Li Xiuyu snorted in dissatisfaction.

"I've already called a taxi for you... Taxi rides are really expensive during the New Year." Li Zhuangsheng smiled and shook his head. "What are you doing in the living room? Are you waiting for me?"

"Don't think of her as more important than me!" Li Xiuyu stepped forward and sniffed Li Zhuangsheng, as if he could smell what Li Zhuangsheng and Zhu Zhixue had done. He said fiercely, "She is just your current girlfriend, and I am your forever relative. Do you understand?"

Li Zhuangsheng smiled and touched Li Xiuyu's head, then turned back to his room and said, "I know, if you two fall into the river at the same time, I'll save you, okay?"

(End of this chapter)